Please God.

So i know this is sort of asking another question.. which i stated in my last post is something I'm doing a lot of lately..

But really, God, why am I here?

I mean here.. at Waynesburg, with these people, at this time?

Because sometimes, I really really dont like it.

Please show me your will Lord.

Amen.

why?

I've been asking a lot of questions lately. Of myself. Of God. Of others.
It frustrates me. Seems like theres not straight answers.
It seems that I shouldnt even be asking these questions.
I shouldn't worry about it. I shouldnt analyze it. It shouldnt be consuming my time.
but it is.
this is why I'm a terrible student.
Because I let my mind be consumed with just about EVERYTHING else, other than academics.
I'm sick of it. I'm so mad at myself. I hate these times in my life.
I feel like I need a therapist.
I feel like I'm not healthy enough to have a boyfriend right now and he shouldnt keep trying to be my therapist.
Ok. this blog is getting to personal and makes me sound like I'm crazy.
I'm really not.
I'm just going through an unneccesary rough time.

I need to remember to pray the prayer of serenity more.

I dont have time to cry or write more.
I have to much to do.
I have to go write a stats paper.

Peace.