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im getting older.
im almost 20. THIS IS CRAZY!
but you know what, its ok. im ok with it.
I know that God has me here at this time, this age, this body, these experiences all for a reason. and i need to live with the knowledge of that. For once, im actually EXCITED about getting older. i mean in some ways im not, just because sometimes i don't like the idea of growing up. But id say my general concensus is that im not anxious or overwhelmed with anxiety about change and getting older like i usually am.
There are so many things im unsure of. So many things that i have no idea whats gonna happen... im keeping a really open mind and just trying to be happy and proud of the fact that my life is up in the air right now!
i dont know where relationships are going..
i dont kow what God wants me to do with my life...
i dont know what il be doing this wk end..
i dont know if im going to pass all my classes...
but i do know that God is soverign. he has amazing abunding grace that has humbled me enough to say that i am completely given up to him.
All i know is i will be striving to die daily in order that Christ may work through me by the work and control of the Holy Spirit.
i sort of feel like a hypocrite saying that. because its hard and often i dont actually do it.
but im trying.
is that enough? idk.
but atleast i can say I DONT KNOW!
it reminds me of the prayer of serenity,
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
In loving memory of
Fr Bertram Griffin -- 1932-2000
Requiescat in Pace
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6
PEACE OUT!
