MIDTERMS ALREADY?!

So, a new year has been well on its way for quite awhile and its going super fast.
I just can not believe how fast time travels, and how quickly I go with it.

I just don't know what to think right now. I can't keep up with things. lol.

school work is going good so far but i dont want to say that for fear of whats to come.
i havent been slacking as much as i did last year. but thats to still say I AM FAR from where I should be in terms of being a good student. I know i need to do better. I mean i am here to get an education and learn and prepare myself for the real world. But i just cant help myself. I love having fun. i love socializing. I hate being too serious and i feel like school just makes you think way too much. lol.

then theres the fact that i miss my family and friends from home sooo much.
if i wouldnt have gone home this wk end it would have been almost two months since i had been home. Thats always wen i start missing people. two months. lol.
and even thought i went home this wk ed i still miss them. i need more time.
this is why i am anxious for thanksgiving break. 10 days! yeah baby.

then theres my friends. i am not totally sure why they are anymore.
well actually i know who i count as a friend. maybe theres a couple im unsure how i feel about.
but mostly i dont know who counts me as friends. Iv have had a bad time this year where i just dont feel like putting forth effort to form relationships. really, its weird. I just wish we could be good friends right away so i wouldnt have to go through the hassle of getting to know someone.
im sick of it. And i dont have a solid group of friends. im still hopping around as usual. and all my close friends hang out with different people. which can sometimes make for awkward situations.

I still have miy solid late night friends. but stover isnt very populous yet.
finals will change that. and hopefully i will make new friends.
me and lisa became friends during finals.
and shes now one of my only 5 close grl friends at school!

speaking of relationships...
nah. i dont want to cover that topic right now.
another blog for another time.

well anyways, its late. im tired. and iv been completely uninteresting.

peace.